I’m on diet. I’m not happy with it.

You know, I hate when people see me after a long time, then the first thing they say was “Ya ampun, kok tambah gendut aja?” As if, the only thing they expected from me is for not being fat anymore. Hellooo… Kok gak nanya “Apa kabar?” atau “Gimana kuliahnya?” atau “Udah nikah belum?” atau sekalian aja “Lagi HAMIL ya???” Kalo udah begitu, saya cuma bisa senyum-senyum geram sambil nahan airmata yang rasanya udah berdesak-desakan pengen keluar..

Emangnya gak ada yang lebih dipeduliin daripada masalah penampilan ya? Seolah-olah saya jadi gak punya arti apa-apa kalo saya gak kurus.. Seolah-olah saya jadi orang terbego didunia dengan ke-enggak-kurus-an saya.. I’ve got other part of my body that need more attention you know.. Ever heard of something called : “BRAIN”? But still, it doesn’t mean that saya mengabaikan tubuh saya yang gemuk. I’ve tried to stay like this. I’ve tried to maintain my body supaya gak tambah gemuk.. And it’s hard you know..

But they just don’t understand. They don’t want to understand. As if, it was my fault, and the way they’re judging me from the way I look.. Oo.. it’s completely… (I’m speechless)
I don’t need those judgement! Give me a chance, and I’ll prove it to you!

Maaf ya.. But this is apa yang sebenarnya saya teriakkan dari dalam hati saya.. So pathetic…